One thing I'd love not to do

If I had to pick one thing. One single thing that as a parent I wouldn't have to ever do it would be to not have to clean the car seats. Nobody should ever be subjected to that hazardous situation. It's just plain out gross.

I admit it's been a while since I cleaned the kids car seats, a loooong while. Mainly because I hate unbuckling the car seats. Seriously putting a car seat back is the most annoying thing on this planet (Well that and Lil's high pitched scream). But I always cringe when I unbuckle that car seat and lift it up. You never know whats gonna be under there. And sometimes you do know and that's why its so scary. 

That french fry your kid lost in the seat a few months ago as now liquefied on the bottom of the seat. That drink that you didn't think they spilled has been absorbed into the fabric of your car. That cheerio that, well you weren't sure the last time they had a cheerio, is caked against the side with a few quarters shoved in there and who knows where they came from. 

Sure I wouldn't have to worry about these things if I didn't let my kids eat in the car, but their were things stuck under their seat that I'm not really sure how they ever got into my car. It doesn't matter if you give permission or not, there are just some things that creep into the crevice under your kids seat that should never ever be there. Plus if my kids are hungry I'd rather feed them in the car then deal with their whining all the way until we get home. 

But seriously, if there was ever a thing I wished I could just blink the problem away, it would be cleaning out the car seats and the junk that's under them. I have already spent over an hour of my day today unbuckling, vacuuming, washing, hosing down, scrubbing the seat, and drying the car seats. I'm ready for it to be over... and I wish I could get the image of those mushed up cheerios out of my head. Ug. It gives me shivers just thinking about it.

I can't eat healthy

I figured out the reason I can't eat healthy. It's because I'm too damn picky. I try but I can't go the full mile because I can not stand half the healthy crap out there. Although lately I have been forcing my self to suffer through the not so great taste of some foods but I just can't go all the way.

 

Avocado-ick
Sweet potatoes-blah
Bananas-meh
Almonds-boo
Zucchini-Yuck
Squash-just vomited in my mouth
Skim milk-yikes
Cream cheese-eeewww
Cottage cheese-disgusting
Plain yogurt-booring

 

Ok. I think I have made my point... trust me I could go on though, like on and on and on and on. I am so damn picky it's frustrating. And to top that off I am a TERRIBLE cook. I'm a great baker but cooking not so much...

I smoked A cigarette

Yes. I did it last night. And I loved it. I didn't love the taste in my mouth this morning but I loved it last night. It's been like a year since I've had a cigarette and damn if they don't make them taste good. I feel like I've betrayed my body by smoking it. I've been so good at cutting out a lot of the unhealthy stuff lately and then I go and do that!? Because I'm crazy! That's why.

 

The next time I'll probably take another puff will be like a year from now. Thankfully I don't have an addictive personality so I can last on this high for a while. I do however have an obsessive personality so I can obsess over the taste and feel of it for a year. And thankfully I can do that instead of slowly killing my body from those toxins. Plus watching those damn commercials is enough to push me away from wanting to smoke for the most part. They are fucking creepy!!

No! You should be euthanized!

To anybody who has not seen this letter posted online. Please read it so you can understand how disgusting human beings can be. This woman-someone's mother (whose kids I feel terrible for) wrote this to another woman and then slipped it under her door. If you are going to have the guts to type up this kind of a letter than you should have the guts to hand it to the person or say it to their face not anonymously type it up and cowardly slide it under their door!

I cant believe someone could write this! She told her to euthanize him. How does anyone ever think this is ok to write about someone else. Its not his fault he is how he is, and he shouldn't be euthanized  because he is different! I'm sorry that your "normal" children are scared, but I'm sure they are scared because of how angry you must get when you hear him rather than the actual noises he was making.

You should be ashamed of yourself wherever you are. And I hope something very terrible happens to you, you sicko! I hope the police find out who did this and then deal with her properly which obviously should be to euthanize her, it seems only fitting to treat an animal like that that way. I cant even say anything nice about this woman because I am so disgusted with this. If you in any way feel that this woman had a right to write this then you can just stop reading my blogs now. Because I would rather have one less follower than have to know that someone like this monster is interested in what I am writing.

To this pissed off mother you can go fuck yourself! YOU don't deserve to walk this earth! YOU are a lesser being! YOU are the wild animal that should be euthanized. YOU disgust me! The world would be a better place without YOU!

Flush goes the baby

http://news.yahoo.com/no-charge-against-chinese-mother-baby-sewer-034959757.html

I'm sure all of you remember reading this one a few weeks back. And how the mother was not charged for anything when they found the baby in the sewer pipes below a toilet. I don't understand how the baby could have made it into the toilet and down into the system if the baby was not actually flushed. I also don't understand how the mother could not be charged with anything because she didn't even report the baby was down there!

Id like to think that if that happened here in America things would have happened a little differently. I would hope that they wouldn't give the child back to the obviously unstable mother, and that the mother would serve some time in jail. I'm sorry but if I had happened to have gave birth while sitting on a toilet and my kid got stuck I would be screaming bloody murder and calling 911 and every other number I could possibly think of to get my baby the hell out of there, not going off and doing whatever till somebody hopefully finds my kid and then step forward like oh yeah that's mine I totally forgot that my kid got stuck down there.

Like WTF!? There are just a bunch of idiots out there I guess, and somehow this is ok what the mother did because she was scared? So that's kind of making it seem like you can do something like this to a kid and just say you were scared? What's next a parent is going to almost beat their kid to death but say oh I was angry and everyone be like oh well that's ok. It may not be the same thing initially but your setting the groundwork for excuses like that. Then where is the line drawn between ok and not ok? I just think this whole thing is a bunch of bullshit and she should be charged with neglect or something. What a bunch of crap!

 

What a 3 min poop consists of

I don't usually lock the door when I go to the bathroom because I know someone will be knocking on the door and screaming until I come out and frankly its not worth the trouble. So this most recent time I was in the bathroom for about 3 minute total and this is what happens.

Lily comes in saying mama which is new, she has known how to say it for a long time but refuses to say it. So she doesn't normally say that so I can't tell her to go play. So when she hears the noise of it dropping in the toilet she starts making popping sounds. The popping sounds turn into kissing noises,  and then all weird mouth noises. As if that's not enough then she tries to look into the toilet and then after she is denied that she starts messing with things behind the toilet.

The whole time she is in there I was trying to keep her distracted from going into the cabinets or ripping the toilet paper apart. Because I was doing all that I was not even able to go! Yes this happens a lot but usually I can still go. I guess we all get stage fright sometimes...

 

My kids are Disgusting!

I think I change just as many poop diapers as I do pee diapers! Its gross! My house always smells like poop because somebody is always pooping. And as a family we are often on the same poop schedule so when one person poops another does soon after, and so on and so on. And it is just disturbing, and smelly. It is not even 10:00am yet and Lily has already pooped twice and she woke up at 8:45!

I have no idea how Tyler ever poops. Its not like he ever really eats. He probably had 10 bites of food all day yesterday but sure enough he pooped. But I completely understand how Lily is always pooping because she is ALWAYS eating! I can not wait until they both can go on the potty and wipe their own butts. It is bad enough to have to smell their dirty diapers and wipe their butts, but now both of them fight to have their diaper changed. They would rather sit in it and play and let it burn their butts then stop for five seconds to change it!

And Tyler refuses to use the potty. I don't want to traumatize him by forcing him to sit on the potty but this is getting ridiculous, he is 3! I have a feeling Lily will learn to use the potty before he is ok with trying it. Times like these is when I wish I was really rich and had a nanny who could take care of this stuff for me! But I don't, so I have to go change ANOTHER poop!

 

 

Boston Bombing

What is happening to this country is terrible. What is going on right now is devastating. There is not many words that can describe my feelings about the recent bombings in Boston. Those boys are disgusting for what they did and hopefully they can catch this second one and give him what he deserves. I have harsh views on how to handle people like this so I won't get into my ideas on what they should do to them I just know they would not do what I am thinking.

But my thoughts and prayers go out to all the people affected from this. It is terrible to read about the three people killed and all the people who are waking up an amputee because of some horrible act of violence. I can't say I have read every article about this because every time I do I wind up hysterical because it is so saddening to read that people could do this to hundreds of innocent people but I have tried to keep up with it as much as I can and it is at least nice to see some of the incredible acts of kindness people have done in light of this horrible tragedy.

And that is why the good will always win over the bad. People keep trying to knock us down but for every terrible act there are thousands more. And that is what should be publicized because all those bad people want is the publicity, they want their "work of art" on show for the world and they get it. But at least we figure it out eventually and show them we can still be good!

 

What is Casey Anthony?

Someone requested my views on the recent show made based on the Casey Anthony trial, well here it is. And below are a few articles on the subject of the "reason" for Caylee's death.

http://news.msn.com/us/court-sets-aside-2-of-casey-anthonys-convictions

http://www.enotes.com/drowning-signs-reference/drowning-signs

http://www.livestrong.com/article/184712-brain-injuries-due-to-near-drowning/

I spent some time debating on how I wanted to start with this topic. It is a very rough and untouchable topic for many people, so I am going to start with this. If Casey Anthony did kill Caylee Anthony then I can empathize with her on what got her to that point. I don't agree with what she did- if she did kill Casey (which I believe she did).

I spend 24-7 with my kids, I deal with them when they are at their best and when they are at their worst, and when they are at their worst I am at my worst. I have done things to them out of anger that I am not proud of (not beating just yelling, but regrettable all the same).  So I can understand when a person gets to that point with their kids where they don't think they can handle their kids anymore. I have been there (I had a colicky newborn and a 2 year old, trust me, I've been there.) So I can emphasize with her on what got her there, but what she did afterwards is not ok.

If your kids are driving you insane or you just cant handle them anymore then you need to ask for help. The solution is not to kill the kid, there are other options a permanent one that still allows them to have a life is adoption, I'm sure there are many people who have been adopted out that would say they would rather that then to be dead (but of course there is always someone who doesn't feel that way).

So now to my original question, what is Casey Anthony? Well for one, she is no longer a mother, and it is sad that she ever was one. But what she clearly is now, is a liar, a manipulator, a soul less monster, an evil person, possibly a murderer, and a free but no doubt haunted woman.

The thing with this trial is the only person who seemed to be doing their job perfectly was Casey's defense attorneys. I think the prosecution got cocky because it clearly seemed like an open and closed case. They left things out, and didn't examine every angle because they were sure they were going to win. The medical examiner was cocky because she probably already believed there was substantial evidence to condemn Casey so she didn't perform the full autopsy. Their faults is what caused Casey to walk free. I don't think it had anything to do with her not being a murderer, I am sure she is a murderer.

That being said, I am not a doctor, nurse, medical examiner, or anyone in that field. But over my years I have been lead to believe that if someone drowns their is evidence that they drowned. (Not just the fact that they are floating in water) but physical evidence within or on their body. So if Caylee "drowned" like they said she did wouldn't her brain show a sign of hemorrhaging or something? Wouldn't it show some sign of damage like what happens to other people who almost drown but survive and then are left with permanent brain damage? So are they telling us there was no way to prove whether or not that happened to her? If the defense medical examiner was able to rule out suffocation because of no sufficient evidence then why was nobody able to rule out the story of Caylee drowning?

This is what happens when people get to cocky. Everybody knew Casey did it and was going to go to jail but obviously not enough time was spent trying to prove a reason why she did it because it seemed clear that she did. So because of cocky people a little girl does not get the proper justice she deserves and her shitty mother is out there and able to reproduce and possibly kill that next one too.

And you know what I have learned from all this? If I ever decide to kill someone I am using Casey Anthony's lawyer cause he knows what the heck he is doing!