What did you just tell me to do?

No really, what did you just tell me to do? I can't remember...

I can remember all four of our birthdays, mine and Mike's socials and most of the kids, any medical history and their dates, doctor appointment times, and anything in that category. But rarely can I remember what Mike just told me five minutes ago. I can't remember if I told him something or asked him a question, or I just can't remember his answer so I have to ask it again.

My brain is so full of child information that I can't retain anything else. I forget something somebody told me until they start to repeat it again and then it all comes back, most of the time at least. My friends tell me stuff about their lives and I'm sure they are tired of repeating themselves over and over. They probably think I don't care about what they are saying enough to remember it, I promise that is not the case, it's in there somewhere I just don't know where.

I know everybody is probably very frustrated with me and my lack of memory but I have started to learn it is my disability. I keep everything in the exact same place so I know where it is (and because I have OCD so bad I can't move something). I write myself notes and have people send me texts reminding me of things so I don't forget. I save voicemails with even the slightest information on them and I keep a very accurate, to the second, log of my credit card transactions because I am tired of going over the limit.

So this is my formal apology to all of those people in my life who have to do things to accommodate my lack of memory. I am sorry if I make things difficult for you by making things easier for me, but that is the way its going to have to be between us forever. I mean hopefully there will be a day again when I can remember something for more than five seconds, but I doubt it! So thanks ahead of time for putting up with me!