Leave the lights on

I'm still afraid of the dark. Yes I said it! I'm afraid of the dark!

Well I'm not afraid of the dark exactly I'm afraid of the shadows the light makes in the corners or on the ceilings. Even though we live in a fairly safe neighborhood I'm always afraid of someone breaking in, or ghosts, or zombies. I know I'm crazy! But I watch way to many scifi movies and totally freak myself out!

So every time I see a shadow on the wall it always looks like someone or something trying to get me. I think that if the house was completely dark and there was nothing to play a shadow on the wall then I wouldn't be so freaked out. As a kid I was always a little scared of the dark, wondering if there is a monster in my closet or under my bed. Never did I think that fear would carry over to my adult life.

I know the real reason I'm afraid of the dark now is because I can't see everything that is going on and that makes it harder for me to protect or save my kids. I know its just a mommy instinct but sometimes my fears get the best of me and I find myself turning on the light to check if someone is there. Or I keep the bedroom door closed in case someone breaks in I have more time to react. Hopefully I will never have to test out how I would react in that case, but hopefully one day I wont spend hours thinking about it before I fall asleep either...