My thoughts on Mother's Day

So as you all know yesterday was Mother's Day. Well, it happened to be my 5th one! When I say I have to stop a moment and think about that because I just can't believe it. It makes me feel super old. I mean if 5 years flew by that fast I'm gonna blink and be 50 in like 5 seconds... please wait while I get the super glue to permanently hold my eyes open...

So now that my fingers have been glued to the keyboard at least I can finish this thought... I realized yesterday that at some point I became ok with doing dishes, laundry, cleaning, and even moving on a day that was meant to celebrate me being a mom. And why am I ok with doing all this stuff on this special day? Because I am a mom! I am constantly moving and cleaning all day that I'd be lying to myself if I was actually expecting a day of just relaxation. Sure I took a nice nap, I finished the last 50 pages of my book, I watched a little tv, and I somewhat slept in to 9:00 am. 

I don't know when I suddenly thought of things like laundry and dishes as an extension of me and not a horrible chore I'm forced to endure daily. I don't know when I suddenly started being an actual mom and not a self absorbed whiny adult. I don't know when taking a nap on the couch became like the best luxury ever. Or when the best cards I could possibly get was a homemade card (which Tyler by the way made the best one EVER at school). And no the answer isn't when I had kids because I was still pretty self absorbed for a while after I had them... I still am sometimes.

I think one day I just finally woke up and realized that I have a great life. I have two beautiful healthy kids, a wonderful guy who loves me and would do anything for us, and I get to stay home every day and care for my family. Yes sometimes I can't wait to get back to working but as I know from recent experiences that I only think I want to work now. Truthfully I'm happy where I'm at and trying to change that results in a panic attack.

I am so thankful that I found Mike and we have our two wonderful kids because before him and them I was heading down a dark path. They saved me and every day they bring joy to my heart and just seeing them play and be happy and knowing they came from me is the only thing I need to have a Happy Mother's Day, well them and Donuts...