When I was pregnant with Tyler we knew early on that I would have to have a scheduled c-section because of my medical background. Well of course there is always a small possibility something could go wrong. I prepared for it like most new parents would and my request was that if it came down to it they should save the baby over me.
When I told my dad my wishes this is what he said to me "Don't say that. You can always make another baby, but we can't make another you."
I understand what he was trying to say, I was his baby and he didn't want anything to happen to me. But what he didn't understand was this was my baby and I didn't want anything to happen to him. That I would sacrifice my life for my child.
But this got me wondering, would I say the same thing to my kids if when they are grown and ready to have kids that they were in this same situation? How can I know? I would do anything for my kids, I would die for them, I have felt that way since the beginning. But what happens when it is their turn to have kids. Would I say that to them because I would be afraid of losing them or would I just easily accept that they would give up their life for their children just like I would have done for them?
At first I judged my dad really harshly for those words, and maybe I still do. But truthfully I don't know what I would say if that situation ever happened with my kids and grandkids. I could end up saying the same thing because truthfully what else is there to say? I mean I can say don't talk or think like that but that doesn't really change anything.
All I can hope for is that the situation I was in when having my children does not happen for them with their kids. And if for any reason it does then I can look back at what was said to me and how I felt about everything and maybe it will help me figure out the right thing to say in that situation. If there really is a right thing to say..
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