Every day I think about my life and how much I love it. But at one point in the day (like now where both kids are whining just to whine) I wonder how my life would be without kids. I know that having Tyler saved my life but sometimes you just cant help think about how your life could have been.
I imagine with the path I was on I would have wound up in a very bad place. I was drinking and partying a lot, and becoming very self destructive. I knew what I needed in my life was a stable relationship, something that could become more. But I was looking for this type of relationship in all the wrong places (like bars). It was amazing that through all my partying I was able to meet Mike and realize just how right for me he was, even if it didn't start off very well.
I could have turned out like some of those people on TV, a grown adult still partying like I'm 18. I'm glad I turned things around and didn't become that person. I still had some set backs after we got together and a bit of rebellion throughout the years but I think I have finally gotten to a point where I can really be a somewhat mature adult and know my priorities, which is more than I can say for many other people my age (kids or no kids).
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